God: doesn’t mess about with a double minded person…
James 4:8 (KJV) “Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded”.
I know you want something and you have gone to the one, the only one who can really bring it forth in the style and manner you desire, the only thing with your request is that you are not stable.
You have found out the criteria for receiving, but your application is faulty; you found your place in the Lord, you are seeking Him with your heart, mind and soul. You believe that He can bring you to the place that you want to be in this life, then you start to doubt just a bit.
You hold unto the part of you which will negate the blessings that He wants to bring to you; just one word of caution today: purify your heart from the spirit of doubt and cease from being double minded.