Almost but lost…Not!

God: seeker of my soul; purchased my ransom; my God.

Isaiah 40:28,29 (KJV) “Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding. He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.

There was once a time in my life I didn’t want to hear anything about a God; I did not want to think about anything divine or hear about some man dying to give me a chance at life eternal; I just didn’t want to hear about it. I think I might have been in a stage of what is termed as depression and bipolar.

All I know is that the good meaning friends around me who were absorbed in the love of God saw that “I needed help”. I must have been a royal pain; not must have, I know I was; I remember how foul I was when roused. I am amazed that they even tolerated me as long as they did and even to this point. I actually felt contented going to hell to fight up with the demons, because that’s where those who don’t recognize God or even believe that Jesus died for our sins end up. In hindsight I will be honest, I was a wreck.

But that’s the grace of God which I hadn’t acknowledge; that’s the sweetness of the Spirit of God who when we have been battered and trodden down and on our way to hell, He comes in and starts romancing you in a soft voice that breaks down ALL defenses and if your heart doesn’t break at this point He shows you a realistic picture of the choices you have. This isn’t the figment of your imagination; He shows you the actual picture.

My God, it isn’t pretty. You have a split moment to make up your mind, live or die; hell or heaven; Jesus or the devil. Choose.

I chose and I am just learning that boredom doesn’t compass my vocabulary in relationship to this man; He is a mystery; the things of Him are vast; He shares a secret and I think I know and have grasped His mind, personality and then He changes up on me. Although He leaves me wanting to know more of Him, I am never left hungry for long. He did promise that they who hunger and thirst after righteousness shall be filled. I found out it is a continuous process, I am being emptied and filled all the time.

After the act of choosing I found out that even though I hadn’t wanted to know anything about Him, boy would I have been surprised going to hell, He makes it plain in His Word, “If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there” (Psalm 139:8 KJV).

Haven’t you heard of this man, did you not understand, that He never fainted, He is never tired; He spends eternity with you on His mind; He lives to give us strength.

Have you not heard of my friend, my father, my Savior, My God? He is the one who gave me strength for the journey.

Trivia: Although he had a great and major destiny to fulfill, the Lord would have killed him because he didn’t follow a covenant agreement, who is this?