Written by: VWoods
I have a battalion of nieces and nephews; as a result of coming from a huge family. I am one of the younger siblings, so the rash of nieces and nephews come at a time when you are pretty young to be classified as a big sister or some new age names which sits popular with the younger sect. The various outpouring in terms of personality and behavior from my family line is “interesting”; I don’t take the dibs with “interesting” family members, but I have to admit my curiosity remains at a heightened level to see what next as we grow older.
Needless to say, the offspring from these curious specimens, manages to place their activities at an increased level of scrutiny despite the siblings have made every effort after seeing the shenanigans of the earlier generations to make corrective measures. I am sure that many of you all can empathize with such scenarios and offer sympathetic comments.
I shy away from serious interaction and influence with many of these young uns, but unfortunately that seem to challenge them and some of them had made me their “shero”. After a stint in the military and shortly after leaving, God found me, committed me to Himself and I am proud to say, He has been a man above all men in my life. I am not anti-marriage, nor anti-relationships, but strongly believe that when the time is right, “HE” will be a part of my life. I repeat: when the time is right and that is not my timing but God’s will. As such I don’t feel the urge to torment my body, engage in actions that will cause me to be in repentant mode, nor do I feel the inclination to pursue self-gratify. I have not been shy about exploring in my life before Christ and frankly, I believe there is a time and place for everything and my God deserves an honest effort from me, I wish to see a deeper aspect of His Holiness. I can identify with “been there, done that, nothing lacking”.
I’m pretty open with those young uns, especially the female sect and I think we talk about most things. My desire is for them to be as eager to emulate me now as a born again individual who is not satisfied with the status quo of just being a believer, but seeking that deeper presence of God’s secret place; than to want to be me or who I was when I was a younger trash talking, daring to the point of crazy person that I was without any real purpose or expectation. That’s something good to aspire isn’t it? But it doesn’t seem to be working, my current desire i.e.: it seems to be reversed and the young uns seem to think they know what is best for me and thinks every mountain or hill I come across is caused by me not “having any fun”, “not enjoying my body at my expense”, “not renting the latest ex-rated movie and loving my body with a fake enjoyment”.
Two of the young uns recently, at separate instances, were brash enough to say in summary, “You don’t know what you are missing, and you have such a beautiful body; I love my body”. I was amazed, I thought, these need extra special prayers, both in their mind and body needed deliverance; I realized at that point that I gained a healthy respect for the following terms: “I rebuke you in Jesus name” and I plead the blood”. I remember the Holy Spirit teaching me, “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own” (1 Corinthians 6:19 KJV) as a new convert.
These conversations caused me to evaluate my relationship with Jesus; did I have any doubts about where I was with Him spiritually, did I miss anything from being with Him, was I unhappy or lacking any good thing from my relationship? I couldn’t see any lack or anything negative or an immediate pressing urge to go back to what I had left, and I most definitely don’t want to be classified with an animal “As a dog returneth to his vomit, so a fool returneth to his folly” (Proverbs 26:11 KJV).
I have had more than usual stresses within my walk from the get go and I wonder how many believers go through those spiritual dilemmas from the start of their Christian walk and I feel honored because I know I am in a privileged group.
One of my challenges now is getting those young uns to catch up to what I am feeling and experiencing and commit to this way of living. I believe that is a good challenge for the short-term and in the interim.